This is OT for the post that prompted it, but here goes.
I just read today’s fake plastic fish post. I like Beth because she puts her money where her mouth is/walks the talk which is something I have yet to achieve. She also combines her anti-plasticness with a loving nature which means she’s rarely confrontational.
Her post about fakeness (quite a long one for her, so sorry about that) and being aware of what’s not real in her mindfulness (still with me? no? go hug a tree) reminded me of a dream I had last night.
Joel hasn’t been sleeping great lately, and last night @0130 would only stay in his bed if I stayed with him. After trying to go back to my own bed twice (he waits until I’m about to nod off again before coming through – excellent timing, son) I decided to go with the flow & kip on his floor. When I dozed off, I dreamt that Steve had come in & was telling me off for sleeping on the floor, and I found it really hard to breathe. It was really bizarre because it was so realistic, but stressful. I think it shows that once again I’m so tired I’m having trouble drawing a line between awake stuff and asleep stuff. Steve was, indeed, snoring away in our bed when I came to, and both my arms had gone dead.
Anyway, I’m off to have a chill before we go out for dinner (woo-hoo!). Nana & Grandad get the wake-up call tonight, if it happens.
p.s. got my hair cut today – wasn’t coping well with the awkward in between stage, so have gone for a longer-than-usual short cut. Really *am*going tochill now or steve will tell me off.
Yes! That’s exactly what my experience was like at the meditation retreat, except that I wasn’t actually falling asleep, I was just daydreaming. But it felt like waking up and falling asleep and waking up and falling asleep. Because my thoughts are often so vivid they feel like real-life even thought they are just in my head.
Maybe daydreams and nightdreams are not so different and we often have a hard time “drawing the line” between what’s happening in our heads and what’s happening in the real world, whether we’re physically asleep or awake.
Beth